Tuesday, March 8
this is really just for me to rant.. don't bother reading since i've probably said it all already.. but it's nice to write it out of my system. for the sake of my sanity.
i had a dream last night that she'd return to school after being absent since friday.. haha. seriously. then when i got to school and went for assembly.. i didn't see her and i was all sad and arghh stupid dream.. then just before the command for attention was given, i turned to my right and saw her.. and it was exactly the way i'd first seen her. from the side. and i suddenly got the chills [i forgot my jacket] and i started whispering oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh to su min who was in front of me.. and her hair looked nice today!! i think she cut it. yay!! =D oh no this sounds damned bad but i don't care i'm going crazy in hc. anyhow.. then we went for lit lecture! and just before we went in, i whispered to my friends to 'choose wisely'.. and they didn't let me down.. hahaha. they sat directly behind her friends so that i'd be sitting right behind her =D the best 1hr20mins of lit i've ever had man.. i noticed a few things about her.. 1. she's got a few strands of grey hair. 2. she's buddhist. i saw the yellow string band around her wrist. 3. she lost her lit notes too. ah hahaha. 4. she doesn't talk in lecture. *stares* i can't resist adding little sarcastic comments! how can anyone be so quiet.. well once or twice she whispered to her friend. not like the other lit lecture when she threw something down her friend's back and made her screech in the middle of class. 5. she's
very helpful. i was taking my stuff out of my bag and my water bottle rolled out.. and down.. towards her.. and i was all oh shit oh shit oh shit [quietly of course].. and she just leant over and picked it up and handed it to me laughing.. the girls keep asking if our fingers touched.. *rolls eyes* you know how long the bottle is? she held one end and i held the other end larh. haha. i was so scared to drop more things and make her think i was doing it on purpose to get her to turn around. so. yeah. then after lecture.. i was walking down the stairs and she was talking to my ct rep.. at the door.. and she turned and looked straight at me. was kinda worried aman was telling her about me. then she walked with aman and a few of our friends and me to our econs tutorial.. it was so weird, all her friends had gone but she was still walking with aman [very slowly, cos i set the pace =D] behind us.. but before that we were kinda talking as a whole big group.. and nope she's
not cheena. =D quite articulate, really. then.. after school, i was eating in the canteen and she was talking somewhere behind me.. then she left first. when i went to the bus stop, i saw her catch the bus and board it.. pretty saddening, cos it meant that i'd missed my bus too. :( and the chance to sit with her on the bus and maybe talk about aman [the common topic]. haha. aman just told me she found out she's a karate black belt. like hello i knew that long ago! ah hahaha. too damned attractive. damnit. i have to stop. if i sit behind her during history tmr it'll be too obvious. :( at least i had a lot of fun staring at her hair today. hahaha.
i swear, i was never this crazy. never. never. never. until she came along in the oh-so-boring hc on the first day of school with her funky hair and nice side profile. damnit. but i must admit this is more fun than i'd ever have thought =D see now i have a reason to go to school. to go for lectures. not to drop any subject. after i'm over her and have graduated, i'll thank her. =D my friends think it's all a big fat joke. guess what, it is. in a way. but in a way it's a joke gone wrong. it started as a joke. but our minds are too powerful to be controlled. i should have kept a tight rein on the situation but it was too fun. so this is the way it's gonna be i guess. hope she's not homophobic. i wonder what the yellow string means.
it must've been love.
7:59 pm
xoxo
